orions-aether

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thinking about marya and how when you think you've lost everything you still have something. even if that something is worms you hid in the back of a chair. her silk shirts and her youth and her love for the world and for adventure. trauma is hard and bad and it strips you of everything you were and everything you think you'll ever be and it leaves you to waste. but somewhere there are worms you left in the back of a chair. and you'll wear silk shirts again. and your friends will write your story better than you ever could. and you are that person and you always will be. and some young mech-wielding bright-eyed transfem will worship the ground you walk on.

I'm like really okay and fine I swear

I don't know how the fuck this happened but episode 3 wealwell is giving aelwyn abernant in some major ways and I don't know how to feel about it

a completely unbiased and correct ranking of the gotch brothers' names (in order of least to most funny to me)

blanewell - not unfunny (none of them are unfunny) but doesn't tickle me quite as much as the others

samwell - I find the almost correct names in some ways funnier than the wacky ones but of the almost correct names samwell is the least funny to me

hatwell - buck wild I can't believe he's real

roywell - another almost correct name also big up middle child he doesn't even have a wiki page this is heartbreaking

wealwell - the man the myth the legend so fucking funny we love our queasy fag and his goofy name

johnwell - idk what it is about johnwell specifically but it's so close to being a name in a way that makes me come undone

maxwell - I literally cannot stop thinking about and laughing about how funny it is that the gotch brothers' names end with being normal and start with being weird like I have so many questions - did they know maxwell was going to be the last and so could give him the normal name? are all of these names normal in canon? were they scrambling around for maxwell and it took them seven tries to remember? each option is wonderful and amazing and I truly cannot stop thinking about the gotch family naming conventions

just thinking about how funny it would be if the wizards in mismag hadn't heard of lord of the rings but then are like "oh yeah for sure!" to billie eilish

you're telling me I'm getting the most resonant and meaningful representation of cptsd I've ever seen and he's called evan fucking kelmp KELMP ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME

eastern european haunted emily axford pc, transfem daughter of libertarians ally beardsley pc, spot on pub representation grizzled old british lady siobhan thompson pc, nasty old gun guy zac oyama pc, posh boy brian murphy pc, famous explorer with a book series that really falls off lou wilson pc we're fucking eating this season my god

jokes on you guys I actually don't have to imagine 😎💪✨

i just put this in someone's comments but it needs to be said again, i need to put this in perspective for you:

imagine hearing a child say "i'm so afraid of losing my home again and under so much pressure that i considered killing myself if i wasn't perfect for you." and then hearing their PARENT respond "yeah...that's kinda why i like you more than your sister."

Steel continues to ring every manipulator bell on my head after his latest episode...

I swear, I have other thoughts (SO MANY THOUGHTS) about what happens to Ame and Eursulon on thos podcast too! But every interaction with Steel leaves me absolutely CONSUMED! Every inch of my body is screaming, "SUVI, YOU ARE IN DANGER, GIRL!", but it feels like grasping at smoke to name them all, WHICH FEELS LIKE ANOTHER REASON! NOT! TO TRUST HER!!

Like, wdym you have to take her back to the place where she can be killed for treason?? Before you give her any real answers??? And all this only after love bombing her and telling her she's your only hope at a daughter she can be proud of...

Idk, maybe I'm just seeing what confirms my bias, but NOTHING she said today gave me any confidence that she is actually on Suvi's side...

I think I just cried and hyperventilated for one hour forty-eight minutes and twelve seconds and then immediately started the episode again

you ever just see a super niche piece of d&d advice (idek if this is the right word for it) and feel an itch in your bones to make an entire zine that's effectively an essay talking about how much you dislike it and the ableist implications of it being enforced at tables but it's just for you because you don't share your thoughts with other human beings that'd be wild and you don't particularly feel like being told it's not actually ableist and you're just oversensitive and can't take a joke today. no just me never mind dw about it

it's a good day to love women

I find it so much funnier that zudrick is in fact just a guy under his armour and not a bunch of birds. mad respect for just a guy we love just a guy

soo just listened to the battle of twelve brooks and I have too many thought and not enough word and oh my fucking god

just me whenever I eat a new food or something with even a little bit of flavour / variation in texture or also sometimes just when my brain decides that the same plain food I've been eating without issue daily for six months is the most overstimulating and painful thing to ever exist in the history of the universe

I have never felt more seen than I did in "sad, sad fish, sad fish"

I've been watching transplanar every time I feel overcome with despair about being trans (right now mostly in respect to the uk supreme court ruling last week, though it is a feeling I get a lot unfortunately) and like it's working but at what cost

the amount of times I've dislocated my jaw from gasping (just heds things yk) at worlds beyond number is truly unhinged. like I feel like my jaw should be owed compensation for this storytelling

the anxiety I felt with adaine not having her top button done up was truly a secondary school moment I was hoping never to have to relive

okay so I know the thing that riz is disputing here is that he's not a child (well he is like 13 but not a small child) and not that he's not a boy but is it nonbinary riz time I THINK IT'S NONBINARY RIZ TIME

im here because of ur trans bad kids post i feel like kristen is transfem (which sort of doesnt work with the story but its a headcanon so. shhh) and realized later in life that you can be nonbinary and trans and probably uses any pronouns (sending an ask because i dont want my mutuals to know im into d20. ok thats all bye :3) (extra note we have the same pronouns! which i think is cool)

the amount of respect I have for trans headcanons that don't make sense in the story but just Feel Right ™️ is truly unbridled. transfem kristen is so good yes, I love the idea that helio expected his chosen one to be a dudebro fratboy and he instead got a chaos gnc lesbian.

also xe/they pronouns are objectively the best ones I don't make the rules

it's trans day of visibility so I thought in honour of that I'd share all my trans bad kid headcanons :))

we're starting with fabian because ofc we are. I love every iteration of trans fabian, transfem, transmasc, enby (less seen but still good). I personally hc him as transmasc, just because I enjoy the imaginary representation of rejection of anything remotely feminine due to dysphoria and then slowly coming back to the things that you genuinely like about it.

adaine next because I almost exclusively talk and think and breathe about adaine. gender nonconforming for sure, probably nonbinary (doesn't use a more specific label than that I don't think), either they/them or possibly they/she pronouns?

kristen is nonbinary and I think probably uses all pronouns?

gorgug also uses all pronouns, the third point of the nonbinary trinity. transfem gorgug also means a lot to me

riz is transmasc to me, he/him pronouns.

fig is transfem, she/they pronouns

lmk your trans bad kid headcanons because I've yet to hear one that doesn't work for me, these are just my personal favourites. happy trans day of visibility, love and solidarity to all my fellow trans people <3

happy mother's day to all my fellow 'did not think arianwen abernant was that bad the first few times watching fantasy high because we were so used to being treated like that by our mothers' hope no contact is treating you well

vandal is fucking everything to me. that's it that's the post

"its gorgug, keep going" what if i cry

me planning my adaine fic : so ik I said my favourite thing about adaine is her rage, her refusal to become the person her parents want her to be, her constant biting back and how brave it is, but like what if I took it away in the interest of angst and self-projection. I'll give it back I swear

fuck you keen, we all say in unison

I also think about the fact riz carried around baron in his briefcase for an entire year a lot.

it feels a lot like a queer (specifically ace for me) denial that I'm intimately familiar with. you know you don't want it but you keep the idea of the life you're supposed to have, the partner you're supposed to want, in your back pocket to fall back on if being different gets too scary, so if all your friends find people who matter more to them and leave you might have someone too. you know it feels scary and stifling and wrong but you keep it there in the bottom of your briefcase just in case, just in case. you can't let it go and you can't let the shame that goes with it go because that would mean being alone, right?

anyway I'm in a perpetual romantic attraction crisis (am I demiromantic or is that just internalised aphobia rearing its ugly head again) and riz gukgak is a mood

i think about the fact riz carried around baron in his breifcase for an entire year a lot. btw.

like yeah you defeated him in the nightmare forest and he isn't a threat now or whatever but. he's there. you know he is. and you carry that invisible weight of the fear that one day all your friends will move on and you will die alone for a year. for more than a year.

and you see it coming true. your plan to keep all your friends together crumbles between your fingers and you don't know what to do.

then it comes back in a massive moment, there is no shoving the monster under the bed anymore. you cannot shy away from mirrors and cover your ears and act like it was never there to begin with. it is too large and you have ignored it for far too long. you must face it.

xainan "even cowgirls get the blues" esch is a dissociative mood

Hi guys, I made a quiz:

just thinking about jawbone saying "you're easy to love" to adaine at the end of sophomore year and sobbing what about it

there's something about this soft spoken but fucking angry british elf mother who doesn't think she's done anything wrong that hits me right in the trauma