Fanfiction Is Making Me Cry At 11 Pm On A Sunday, What The Fuck

I was drinking a popping boba, and I couldn't get any more pearls out, so I said, out loud, "you fucker, give me the balls"

I have never felt such intense embarrassment in my life

I love Zoloft so much

Life is all gits and shiggles until your hair looks fuckass

Every time I bomb a math test I consider suicide

Seeing a Cybertruck in the wild inflicts you with a debuff called “urge to do some property damage”

I keep smacking my head into shit, I'm literally 5'2, how does this keep happening?!?!?

I am both so incredibly unfunny, and the biggest clown to exist

STOP FEEDING ME AI SLOP, I WANT HUMAN GENERATED BULLSHIT

AHHGAHAHAHAHAHA

If I see that goddamn flesh hat boy on my feed again, I will be going to prison

So like, this is kinda stupid, and if you know me in real life, no you don't, buttttt.... I have something to complain about. So, someone told me today that I looked like a "masc lesbian", now I am a lesbian, but I love femininity, and over the past few days it seems like more and more people have told me I have this kind of masculine quality about me, and I, Fucking , HATE IT. I want to be feminine, I try to be feminine, I loveeee feeling pretty, and my question is, do people see me as masculine???? I try to wear pretty clothes when I feel up to it, and I do my makeup and I have long, big hair, what the fuck about me is masculine??? This is not hate for my lovely masc lesbians, y'all are fun as hell and I'm glad you're comfortable in your own skin, but God I hate being perceived as masc, it makes this weird feeling settle in my chest. Is it the fact that I can put my emotions on hold when necessary?? Is it my affinity for leadership??? Is it because I'm a STEM kid??? You can be feminine doing all these things, but people keep telling me I seem masc. Part of me wonders if it is because I have a more masculine build because I do sports, but like, my waist curves like a woman, my back problems are a result of my chest, I have a fuck tone of muscle and fat on my thighs, I cannot for the life of me see myself as masculine, but so many people have told me this.

IDK how to finish this off, but, if u see this pls give me ur opinion on this topic if u feel like it.