Sean X Reader - Blog Posts

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pairing :  sean wallace x reader 

word count : 1,050 

summary : your relationship with sean is going downhill and you both don’t know what to do. 

warnings : spoilers, d*ath

a/n : this wasn’t requested but suddenly i felt sad during a song and i was like hey let’s overthink and create something dramatic! it’s my first one-shot about sean so i’d be happy if you take it easy on me ^^

lately you've been busy

wonderin' if you miss me

why did you go against me? i just wanna know

you knew it wasn't the same. you both knew you were far away now, no matter how hard you tried to bring the pieces together, glue them, tie them. every attempt to fix the mess has failed. anything you tried to keep this alive worked and you ended up feeling like a running child, breathlessly trying to catch the string of your kite. ready to burst into the tears, ready to watch them pool around your feet as the water increases right before it swallows your whole soul. no matter how many times you tried to ignore this feeling, he didn't fail to remind it back even though it wasn't his intention.

i was out there on the road, life out of control she became a victim to my busy schedule and i know that it's not fair, that don't mean that i don't care

he was ignoring the truth, trying not to feel, not to think just like you. he's always been better at not showing it, not letting people realize how badly it was eating him alive, losing the love of his life while living in the same house. watching her back as she sleeps, or lately pretend to sleep, and not feeling her heartbeats on his chest. not feeling her arms around his neck right before things evolve to making love eye to eye. how arbitrary phone calls ended a long time ago, saying 'i love you' was something you both said with the edge of your mouths. you knew you still love each other but can't a way to rekindle the spark and rebuild the connection once you had. and that was the worst. maybe if you had a very loud crisis or a real explosion in the middle of your relationship it'd be easier. you'd hate him and he'd hate you right before you pack your bags and ask him let you go, once you cry all the emotions and get yourself ready to leave your soul resting right next to him on your pillow. the moment you realized how much you loved him like no other before, you already knew  if this ends it wouldn't end well for you. it was obvious that you'd suffer more, you'd lose a bigger piece of yourself but you didn't want to think about that back then. you just run as fast as you can until you both realized your end has arrived.

wait maybe it's just a phase took a minute for you to say 'i'm sorry' don't ask if you really don't wanna hear it when i'm tellin' you how i feel you're bothered

your effort of delaying the inevitable end didn't change the truth, not one bit. when you realized you felt happy after having a simple conversation about your day with a few sentences then saying 'goodnight' to each other, you knew it was the time. this couldn't go like this because there weren't even ups and downs. your relationship's heartbeat got flatline. the relationship once you saw as your safe house was crumbling and falling down.

you don't feel a way you're gone away you don't listen you promised it wouldn't change

finally you decided to open up to him and give him some time to get ready like you both weren't trying to for weeks. 'try to come home early tonight, sean. we have to talk.' you said without looking away from your plate and that was why you missed everyone's shocked and nervous expression, including sean. but he was quick to collect himself. he knew this was something about to happen but did he want to acknowledge it. 'i'll try. can't it wait though? we might be busy with th-' 'it can't. you're always busy and you can be busy as long as you want after this.' he frowns at your words and your calmness. how did you end up like this? when did you get far away from him like this? it was like your body was right in front of him but your soul was across the ocean. he found himself wondering if any vacation or any gift could fix this. was there any way of fixing your heart after all these months? after all the pain he put you through? his thoughts got interrupted with your hand on his shoulder and a simple 'have a nice day.'

girl you always catch me at the bad time when i know you probably think it's a lie and i know i told you last time was the last time how could you pull the plug and leave me flatline?

he tried to hold onto this moment before losing you forever because he somehow knew this was the last time you touched each other. ''i'll, love.' he collects some courage before speaking again. 'i love you, y/n.' he notices how quickly you froze and it hurts him seeing you so unfamiliar to him. oh how he wishes he could go back in time and keep you closer, tighter. but you still surprise him with your 'i love you more, sean.' it was the purest way of showing your love towards each other and like a line which you didn't cross no matter what you were going through. he knew it was too much for you now but found himself apprecieting your effort anyway. maybe, just maybe, he could fix this and win your heart fully back. he knew he didn't deserve to hope this but he couldn't let his person go without showing any effort. he left the house with these thoughts and you on his mind. 

that was a day before it happened. the incident. he couldn't make it home like he thought. he couldn't make it back to you. not even for the last time.

i'm just scared you're gone away you promised it would stay the same

your last interaction was genuine regarding your situation, like you felt what was coming. it was the last thing he'd found himself thinking during his very last minute, as he laid on that floor while bleeding. you were the last thing on his mind right before everything slipped away and went dark.

Van dan Linde gange x Cannibal! Reader.

Notes:Reader is nonbinary but you can see them as female or male,English isn't my first language,Reader backstory is lowkey similar to Bubba Sawyer,You're the oldest sibling,Platonic but can be seen as romantic,Reader described to be creepy and quiet,You're also 30 years old,I gained motivation after seeing tcm,Possibly in Michigan and listing to butcher vanity and masa work design,I also didn't include everyone from the gang here sorry :p

Warning:Cannibalism,Murder,implied necrophilia(No,nobody actually do it but it's mention)Mention of molesting,Foul language,Etc,May be ooc,Tell me if i missed anything that could be triggering,Abuse,Angst,Meat lot of meat.

•When you were young, Your family was always poor and hungry, So they found a way to survive and keep their full and satisfied, By eating each other.

•It ends up being a tradition in your family, A fucked-up one for sure, Most of your siblings are a bunch of rabid animals, After all eating food that always begs and screams will cause you to have mental problems and stress.

•And your parents are even worse than your siblings, Ever since you turned 10, They make you bait some people to join you for dinner or to find your missing jewelry in the forest.

•Of course, it was a lie. Your father either shoots them or knocks them out, and when you grow up, they make you do different types of chores and take the job of killing men, women, and even children.

•They always move from location to location, camping here and there to avoid suspicion.

•You had a sane mind at least, well not the sanest mind but at least you know what you're doing is wrong, But you do them due of fear, And probably desires, can't help yourself but salivating at the sight of blood, Despite the metallic taste.

•When you grew up, you had enough. Your family always makes you do the hunt and chores, always yelling, always fighting, so you end up blowing their brains off and enjoying dinner, finally free.

•Stealing a horse and your father's shotgun and dagger (or any weapon you want; i know shotgun are probably not well known during those times, but they are so cool), hiding your family bones, and you start with going to a town and buying important tools for survival.

•You end up becoming an outlaw. Aside from killing, you had a hidden talent of stealing and pickpocketing, After all, your family can't always live on human meat only. They also need vegetables and seasoning, you know! Oh. wait, they are dead.

•Even after you become free and you could live with animals meat instead of human ,You couldn't handle it, The argue whatever you see blood or meat, You can't control it.

•Long story short, You have been pretty lonely and bored these days(Especially after becoming a well known outlaw), You wanted a new family or at least a partner, Maybe you can join a gang?

•Your wishes come true one day, You met Dutch vand dan Linde, You told him about how you want to join this gang, And how talented and skilled you are, Of course he didn't trusted you at first and rejected your wish, But after few times he finally agreed.

"Thank you thank you so much! I promise i will be useful" You said happily while riding your horse with Dutch, With your weapons, Items and everything.

"Yes yes,I know you said this for the third time" Dutch sighed, He sounds annoyed.

"Oh sorry,I'm just too excited" You haven't changed that much ever since you were a kid, Carving for prise and love like your crave for human meat, You have been lonely for a long time, You almost missed your family.

•Where you were finally in the camp, You were grinning from ear to ear, Some members noticed the new face.

"Aye who's this fine beauty?" A guy with a ginger hair point in your direction while whistling.

"This is (_____) (_____)! The newest addition to the family,Make sure to welcome them warmly!" Dutch yelled loud enough so everyone can hear.

•Dutch told you at first to rest today and fit in the gang, Then the next day you do multiple works and chores, Before leaving your side.

•Unfortunately, Most of them know you as the violent criminal who gut people with no sense of remorse, You aren't very different from them though, Some of them felt uneasy around you but they were nice like Mary Beth, Lenny and Karen, Others feel a bit skeptical about Dutch choice of making you join the gang like Arthur, Javier and Housea.

•Meanwhile there's Sean who flirted with you, You replied with a thanks thinking it was a nice gesture, But Mary beth glared at him and told him to no bother you while holding your hand.

•Micah on the another hand was completely rude and bitter, Always getting under your skin, sending nasty look and comment whatever you bump shoulders, Tilly told you to he's usually like this and it's better to ignore him.

•After doing your tent, And tidying your items, you pick up your special meat and seasoning and give it to hosea saying that you can help him with the cooking, He agreed.

•He was asking about the type of meat and seasoning that you're going to cook, You lied about the meat,Saying it was pork, He replied with a hum.

•Later during the night, The gang were drinking and celebrating about the new member, Lot of the members were eating your soup, Praising Hosea.

"Oh no you should actually thank (____) they helped a lot with the cooking" Hosea said with a surprisingly proud voice.

"Really? Image if that cowpoke poison' us" Micah spoke,Voice filled with venom for some reason.

"Can you stop being an asshole for a minute?" John replied sarcastically.

"It's the truth! They could have killed us all right now" Micah yelled, Putting this empty plate aside.

•You decided to stay quiet instead of begin in the middle of the fight, You honestly wanted to giggle at how fast he's eating, He don't want to admit that he actually enjoyed your food and he will probably be the first one to die because of the amount of soup he's devouring if you actually poisoned it.

•After few months, You become known as begin hardworking, And a talented gunslinger, But also with a weird charm.

•The one that end up having a great relationship is Jack, He thinks you're so cool, And you also allow him to do things he isn't allowed, Like using a gun(One time then he got knocked out against the tree, Abigail scolded you both) Or giving him lot of candy.

•Aside from Jack, Other members start respecting and trust you in hard missions and jobs, And making nice relationship,You love drinking with Lenny, Karen or sean and start doing stupid shit, You're happy they are getting along with you, Even Micah start having some sort of respect toward you,

•But of course it doesn't mean nobody will notice your weird behavior, For example whatever you go out for a hunt, Hosea sometimes tell you to bring someone with you to help, But you refuse saying that you you're better alone.

•The one who also eyeing you suspiciously is Arthur, Whatever you both go out to rob or kill, He thinks you're acting as a creep, Looking at chubby, Young and healthy men and women with a eyes of hunger, Sometimes even gulping, And telling him to go back first to the camp after killing trying to take the corpse away from this sight.

•Pearson also mentioned how you you're the one who pick and cut the meat alone, In the forest, Almost trying to hide something.

•One time while stabbing a man who tried to kill you while stealing, This blood filled your face and you licked it in such away...That makes Arthur feels some type of emotion.

•Not to mention how fucked up you look sometimes, The eyes and the bags under them, Your face wrinkles and how old you look despite begin freshly thirty, Something totally happened to you.

•So one time while the gang was happily eating from your cooking, Arthur decided to confort you in front of everybody, Mentioning every point and demand an explanation to your behavior, You panicked of course, Sean tried to defend you saying that he's overthinking, A heavy and suffocating tension fill the air.

"Are you accusing them of begin a molester??!" Karen spoke with shock in her voice

"Hey i think you're overthinking a little bit too much" Bill raised this eyebrows, Agreeing with Sean.

"To be honest with the points,It isn't impossible" Charles said while gazing at your face.

"i don't understand.."Jack said with a confused face, Abigail cover this ear,Worrisome.

"I...Well i-i" You sutter while thinking of believable excuse, But with the stares, Murmurs and arguments, Your mind goes blink, And with Dutch circling you, It seems like Arthur discussed this with Dutch first.

"Well if you won't say anything..." Dutch click this revolver and point it at the back of your head, A few gasps were heard, Micah was watching with interest.

"WAIT WAIT! I will say it just please don't hurt me!" Your eyes become hazy and your voice trembled.

"Then spit it out" Dutch uttered in a cold way,Growing impatient.

"I'M A CANNIBAL,I EAT HUMAN MEAT FOR SURVIVAL AND MY PARENTS FORCED ME TO EAT THEM" You screamed at the top of your lungs.

"WHAT THE HELL!" John jumped up from his seat as the bowl in this hand fell of to the grass.

"Wait doesn't that means that the she had been feeding us human meat the whole time!?!" Sadie covered her mouth.

"YA CRAZY MOTHERFUCKER" The smirk was wiped off from Micah face before he jumped at you and grabbed you by the neck.

"WAIT I DIDN'T FEED YOU ANY-"But before you could say anything, A punch was thrown in your face, You fall in the ground and Micah get on the top of you, Beating you up.

"MICAH MICAH WAIT!" Arthur and housea tried to get micah off you, Dutch send a kick to your body out of anger, He trust you.

•There was a multiple different reaction, Karen ran away with sade and others to the bushes so they can throw up, Abigail covered jack eyes and picked him up away from the the violent fight, Molly and Grimshaw looked at you with pure disgust, The others were trying to broke the fight between Arthur, Hosea and micah with Dutch.

•You were knocked out, Charles finally picked up Micah and removed him from your body, Others were trying to calm down Dutch, After few hours and arguments, They end up tying you to a tree.

•The next day when you woke up, You were met with the nastiest stares you ever seen in your life, You probably thought they were going to throw rotten tomatoes in your face.

•You don't know what they are going to do with you, But hopefully they won't hurt you in any way....

I'm pretty tired,I will make part 2 in the future hopefully,Also you can make fanfics or headcanon inspired by it,Please tell me if there's a typo or a mistake:3 I'm a new writer so please be nice.