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This Ship was the one that got me to draw none stop... It will die with me!

Larxene and Axel from KingdomHearts or there real names Lea and Elrena

Lazy Afternoons

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Here's a little teaser WIP of my piece for @eternalbondzine!!!

This is after the first layer of pastel chalk. There will be at least one more and then a final detail layer in chalk and pencils (and maybe markers)! I'm a little in love and very excited to finish this piece!! <3

AKUSAIMONTH 2015: BERSERK

Day 20: SET C - “Blank Stare”

Did you know? Apparently Nobodies come back into being the way they remember themselves. I think you probably do, after all the teardrops are gone from your cheeks.

So, apparently the truest vision I have of me is bleeding. I’d laugh about the irony, if it didn’t hurt so much. I keep thinking about how fast the wound scarred over last time. No such luck now, I think it’s getting infected … again. Weird, to be back in a human body, only to realize how frail it really is.

But I don’t think I have to tell you that. Still sleeping, no sign of waking up. Only because you saved me. Again.

I… well.

I know you don’t want to hear this, but … I really wish you didn’t do it. Save me. You should have just left me in the darkness. You made so many friends, and they miss you. And I … just don’t deserve to be here in your place. They’re friendly to me of course, saying any friend of yours is a friend of theirs and saying it doesn’t matter what I …Even Roxas and Xion. I can see her face now, you know.

I … I’m so sorry. And I can’t even get myself to say it. I can’t open my mouth whenever any of them are around.

I’m glad they gave us a place to stay here in the castle. With strangers living where our parents’ houses used to be, I really wouldn’t have any other idea of where to go. But it hurts to be here, in Radiant Garden. I can barely stand to look outside a window. It’s all so full of memories.

Of you. Of us.

I miss you, so much.

It hurts.

I wish I could have at least talked to you, even if just for a little bit. It’s been so long. And even longer since we talked as friends.

I know I’ve said it a hundred times, but I’m so sorry. For everything I did. I don’t know if you can hear me and I don’t know if you’d even want to listen to my side of the story. It’s not an excuse, I know that. I’m not even sure why I told you at all. I … it just hurts so much.

They tried to bully me into joining them for some ice cream again. But I can’t leave you alone. I can’t. This is the only thing I can do for you. Staying by your side, making sure you’re not alone.

Remembering.

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AKUSAIMONTH 2015: BERSERK Day 19: SET C - “Crush My Heart”

The first thing I felt was a stinging pain carved in my face.

I touched my cheek with a shaking hand and so the second thing I felt was wet and sticky and warm and it suddenly made me taste iron on my lips.

The third thing I felt was breathing. My own, deep but burning in my chest, and that of another, calm, below me. Another. Another person.

I tried to wipe away the blood from my eyes and moved to lift myself up. It was hard, my whole body felt heavy, but I managed to prop myself up on one arm. And there you were.

Breathing, motionless. I stared at your face. Alive, but unmoving. I tried to say your name, but nothing came out, my lips wet with blood but dry anyway and my throat numb. I didn’t know how long I hovered over you, but it was the realization that I was dripping blood onto your face that finally made me sit back.

I didn’t know why I was bleeding again. I didn’t know why I was lying on the floor or why you were there (asleep? unconscious?). But I realized I did know where I was. My breath started to hitch and I felt my stomach clench as I recognized the room where we had lost our hearts. Where you tried to save me, where I gave in anyway, my heart taken from me and my face carved.

Why were we here?

Did this mean… that it was … over?

Was I... back…? Was I …

Was I me again?

Sometimes as a Nobody I had tried to imagine how it would feel when my heart would be returned. I thought I’d feel relief or maybe even happiness. But in reality all I felt was pain and grief and a horror I couldn’t even place but that gripped me so tightly it blocked out everything else. When tears finally came I didn’t stop them. They burned in the cuts on my cheeks, but I barely felt it. I sat next to your unmoving body and I wept for the first time in years, until finally someone came rushing into the room, screaming your name and taking both of us away.

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AKUSAIMONTH 2015: BERSERK Day 18: SET C - “Lyrics (Only If For A Night)”

[ And I heard your voice, as clear as day And you told me I should concentrate It was all so strange, and so surreal That a ghost should be so practical ] [ Only If For A Night – Florence + the Machine ]

Somewhere in the darkness, I thought I heard your voice. I thought I felt your hands.

The sensation was so real and warm and wrong. I was alone, wasn’t I?

But I heard it again, so far away, felt it so close to me and it didn’t matter. I didn’t care if it was real or an illusion or a fever dream my crumbling mind conjured. I clutched onto it. It gave me a focus, a lifeline in the madness of my fall and I would not give it up.

I would not

give you up.

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AKUSAIMONTH 2015: BERSERK Day 13: SET C - “Blissful Ignorance”

I searched for the warmth I once found in you, but it was so hard to remember. Everytime you rejected me, it left me a little more indifferent and soon, there was nothing else left.

It didn't hurt. How should it, when I couldn't feel at all? Unlike you, I accepted it from the start. I didn't try to fight a fact I wouldn't be able to change.

I accepted it. Just as I soon learned to accept that you would no longer be a part of my existence.

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Part 2/4

(I decided to upload them individually, since it will probably be a few more weeks before I finish the other two drawings in the set.)

Oops, akusaimonth is already over and I only finished one picture out of the four picture set for the first prompt.

In Time I Awakened To A New Purpose

(Can you believe KH3 releases in less than a week? I can’t.)

So, last night I dreamt I was playing KH3. 

Lea and Isa (still norted) were there, having a frustrated and angry argument, which wasn’t surprising at all uNTIL IT TURNED INTO A FRUSTRATED AND ANGRY MAKE-OUT SESSION. 

I was so shook, I stopped, turned off the game and texted my girlfriend this one sentence I never expected to type:

“I can’t believe AkuSai is canon now.”

AKUSAIMONTH | 2018 Day 7: FREE DAY

I want you for a lifetime So if you’re gonna think twice, baby I don’t wanna know, baby I don’t wanna know

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AKUSAIMONTH | 2018 Day 1: Dawn & Dusk

“But you'll never be alone, I'll be with you from dusk till dawn.“

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My reaction as soon as Lea/Axel was on screen:

My son!