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omfg, im skipping class and hiding in the bathroom and i can hear another girl doing the same. so its super quiet, and my fucking stomach growls SO LOUD and i just hear the rustling stop from the other girl.

anyone got a shovel? imma just start digging my grave

TW 3d

i haven't eaten all day and i'm SO PROUD OF MYSELF.

we're getting pizza for dinner as well so that's a guarantee i'm not eating that. worst case scenario i do a ch3w and sp!t

should we go for a 2 day fast?

edit- follow up question, do you end up swallowing a lot of the food from ch3w and sp!t? like is it the equivalent of 1 bite?

edit2- i got it forced down my throat 🥲 what a fun day i've been having

I want to look malnourished 

~Wieiad~

9•27•24

Breakfast:

111g Carrot slices - 46c

84g Celery slices - 12c

19g Small tomatoes - 6c

48g Red grapes - 33c

80g Plums - 37c

Lunch:

54g Peanut butter chocolate protein bar - 208c

Dinner:

43g Brownie batter puff protein bar - 151c

Total Cals - 493

Water Intake - 68floz

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~Macros~

Carbs: 71g

Protein: 33g

Fat: 12g

Fiber: 11g

Sodium: 820mg

Calcium: 218mg

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~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~Decent day, it could’ve been better. Tomorrow I’m gonna start taking some vitamins, but the bad thing is that all of them combined are 100 cals * . * I got gummies so maybe that’s why it’s so much. I just have a really hard time swallowing pills so I thought gummies would be better for me, but idk…the only thing I can do is wait and see how it goes but I’m a bit concerned lol

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guys, being overweight and then developing Ana is like the shittiest thing ever.

Cuz what do u mean I am knuckles deep into ed and i am just normal weight? that shit is heartbreaking fr

Just me having my fav meal: (coke zero in my fancy cup)

sucking in

not sucking in

i havent been really focused on my weight in a few weeks but i have been watching what i eat and somehow i actually made it to 118.8lbs. but im confused how tf i still look fucking huge. gonna start restricting alot again. meanspo appreciated lol.

yeah i woke up with my heart pounding severely. and i could barley get up without it getting worse. my head was so dizzy i was seeing black and white glitchy patterns so i had to focus on that before continuing. i had Half a tukey sandwhich with 8 pieces of lays chips and a cup of sweet tea. as unhealthy as it sounds it helped me feel better physically. the scale says i gained 1lb but im gonna be working out, drinking LOTS of water then taking a cold shower. to help burn some cals. but i think i jumped back into relapsing to fast bc its only been 3 days of fasting and i felt like i was near fuggin death.

gave in... had a half of turkey sandwhich

1 slice cut in hald whole wheat bread-60 cals?

TINY drop of mayo..idk but im gonna guessss 20cals..?

1 slice of Hillshire turkey=30cal

and 3 lays potato chips-30cal. idk what it is but i push it higher to make my brain not wanna consume more calories that day.

i took one full bite and Chewed and Spit the rest

im gonna guess 50 to 100cals consumed out of my 250 limit for today.🤷‍♀️

im so hungry but i look so bloated n havent lost any weight im still stuck at 123lbs. i need meanspo or smth. 😭

edit- i lost 1lb thats cool ig but it needs to drop down faster ://

so ive been stable at 123, not loosing not gaining unless i have a IBS episode which makes it go up but it ALWAYS goes back down. i was somehow 121 a few days ago AND IM BACK AT 123lbs LIKE WTFFFF it js wont stay down. even if i BARLEY eat. im gunna kms omg

CW is 121lbs i wanna drop to 95lbs so badlyyyy i saw it in my friends search <my friend w benifets> watching ykw of a girl and in the bio was 93lbs latina like bro he always says im not fat but jesus he like his girls TINY. hes my motivation to lose weight. i js wanna be his girl. not his fck buddy.

i feel so fat i used to be thin when my ex broke up with me then i met a new boy and i gained some weight and he even said he prefered skinny girls. his ex's were stunning i need to get back in control. Gw for now is 115. then we'll go lower :P