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Ya know… venting i guess? Yeah- don’t mind me lmaooo

This queerphobic shit makes me wanna kms but that's exactly what they want

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@yoko-ono-daily @johnonolemons @liverpoolian and @takashimakato

I will be going over a few things I've been going through at the hands of my mother and I need you guys to listen along/Read along

Misery

a state or feeling of great distress or discomfort of mind or body.

Manipulation

trying to control another person so they will do what you want because it benefits you. Firm boundaries are necessary to protect yourself from a manipulator

For quiet sometime now every since August 2023 I've been manipulated by my mother in multiple ways.

1. her gaslighting me to believe my family hates me

2. all of my friends or Acquaintances are trying to R word me or Touch me inappropriately

3. That my feelings aren't as important as he feelings

4. That my mental health is not at all important and that the medication I was using did not help me at all.

What makes this worse is that My mom now has another thing to manipulate me with something I did that I'm not proud of.

She also makes me believe no one cares about me to the point that I barely have contacts in my own phone anymore.

That these guys I hang with are gonna rape and take advantage of me even though they are the only people I feel safe with besides my other friend.

My feelings are never validated, hell I'm staying at a house I don't want to stay at so my mom doesn't use this secret against me making me submit to her torture and abuse.

My mental health has been regarded so bad that I've tried to off myself multiple times and I've told my mom I need medication to get better but am met with threats of 302ing

(302)

In Pennsylvania, a 302 commitment is an application for emergency evaluation and treatment for someone who is a danger to themselves or others due to a mental illness. A person can be considered for a 302 commitment if they meet certain criteria within the past 30 days, such as attempting suicide, self-mutilation, or being unable to care for themselves without supervision. A 302 commitment can only be processed in the county where the behaviors occurred and can last up to 120 hours. A 302 commitment usually stays on a person's record for life, but an attorney may be able to petition the court to have it removed.

I've been miserable with everything that's been going on I have no one to go too and I'm scared to tell an adult and get CPS called its frightening every single second of the day walking on eggshells.

I also rarely eat since I'm afraid that we won't have any food left and since I don't have a job yet since I'm still in school and my mom has a shitty job we won't have lots of money.

My mother's baby father (not my father)

Has accused me of liking his wife (since my mother and him are not together and talk because my mom has a kid with him) even though I'm not interested in this lady and have a preference.

He called me a whore for having a partner and has told me I need to "Stop being Grown" when his niece is sending naked pictures of herself to people.

His niece is not better, she called me boring for not wanting to go outside and just watch what I want to watch while I'm there.

Turned off something I felt comfortable watching then tried to talk to me like it was okay before telling me I have to apologize to (Her uncle's wife) for trying to talk to her since I apparently am in love with her.

I told her about my S/A in confidence and she told everyone making me look like a whore..saying I enjoyed everything.

She lied to me saying she never told anyone but she did because I just don't go Promoting someone touching my body.

But i just want to say that this has been happening to me since August 2023 when I moved with my mom after my aunt kicked me out after something happened.

hey, come on, there is nothing more blissful than crossing the bridge instead of jumping off of it.

Art by @kmcvisuals

TW : su1cide, talk of death, uhh SH ig

When my dog dies I’m either gonna kill myself or the people around me

no in between

Ok skk idea incoming (based on yours truly being mentally unstable)

A fic written from 17? dazai's perspective where he finds out chuuya after everything has also become suicidal but in the doesn't tell anyone way,

as in 17 year old dazai finds his crush who he was just laughing with two hours ago, trying to commit suicide. He freezes up because what? Why? And then on instinct saves chuuya.

Example:

He suddenly relises why chuuya was 'jokingly' agreeing to the double sucide he had proposed during their latest misson, But it also didn't make sense blindly loyal life loving chuuya suicidal? It didn't make any sense.

He kept a close eye on chuuya after that, focused on his every movement even more than before. However he didn't know what to do when chuuya was away and he lost his best friend, he of course listened to oda and ran away but he waited for chuuya to get back.

When he talked to chuuya he really wasn't expecting to end up with chuuya as his rich husband and him in the ada, chuuya is not in the mafia anymore mind you his husband is rich in a respectable way.

The ada hadn't met his husband yet, they didn't even know about his husband to be honest, it's not like dazai hid chuuya from them. To be fair dazai didn't fluant the fact he was married either, even his ring was almost never in view.

And him flirting with women didn't help even if to him it always clearly a joke. He would never cheat on chuuya, Chuuya & his promise was his reason for living and chuuya's was him, they were even planning to add another reason soon.

Should I finish this then Ao3 it?

Vent art

I'm going to sleep now

Crap! Forgot to mention that these are my vent sonas... so if you see a post about them, it's definitely a vent.

Have you ever forgotten to do your English homework and the teacher gets pissed off at you so they decide to call your grandmother who works at the school as is the HOD[Head Of Department] to deal with you, then she gets pissed off and beats the living soul out of you, makes you fall of your chair 3 times, some of your classmates giggling, some of them refusing to look at you or disappointed in you and you wanna jump of the edge of the school's corridors and try and self harm yourself and become extremely depressed to the point you think life is not worth living anymore?

No?

Okay then…

VENT

[WARNING: Mentions of s*icide]

If someone were to as me "How are you?", you'll expect to say "I'm fine!" but I'm not.

My puppy Maximus[who was a month old] got poisoned and passed away and my dog Bruno got kidnapped by S[I'll not refer to his name, he'll be called "S"]. I swear, if something happens to Ricky[my other dog], I'll fuckin' kill myself. I already hate 2024 :)

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tw// sh and suicide

save me from myself