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Queer Love - Blog Posts
Communicating with people I often stay closed to them, showing only that side of myself which consists of socially approved, conventional features, and hiding the rest behind this layer of normality. Of course, there are exceptions - those ones who are more trustworthy - but even with them some of my thoughts remain unspoken as well as certain intentions stay undone because of the fear of hostile misunderstanding.
During most of interactions I carefully choose my words, keep my emotions under lock and key, fit my appearance to certain standarts (to be honest, this is what I always do, unfortunately), because I foresee that otherwise I will look like a weirdo.
But in thoughts I'm counting minutes till the moment when I'm alone. When I can stop thinking of how I look, erase the smile away from the face and simply become myself.