Daddy Issues - Blog Posts

And yet I still fucking miss him, fuck you dad. Actually no. Not fuck you because it’s what you wanted.

I carry the weight of my parents mistakes.

It’s so heavy, I just want to make you proud.

“Older is always better”(smut+fluff)

Writers note->Guys hear me out—2000-2014 james hetfield was peak dilfism like you cannot convince me otherwise- look at his tattoos and his lean but buff body+ THE FAUX MOWHAWK he looks SO FINE IM CLAWING AT THE WALLS 🖐️😔💔 (anyways enough abt my ovulation ENJOY!!)

Foreword> You meet your long term boyfriend, James Hetfield, after a concert to give him a special birthday surprise, but it turns out he’s surprising you…

Dynamics

James-Dom

Reader-Sub

Warnings: MINORSDNI!!, Explicit Smut Rough sex, Degradation, Size Kink, Age gap (10 years-TTN era James, reader is 32) , Consensual, Oral (m receiving), Hickeys, safeword mentioned, cockwarming, edging, did not double check grammar or tense

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You tap your foot eagerly as you sit on the plush leather couch. If you knew it would take so long, you would’ve worn something less revealing against the chill of the air-conditioned room. The show ended 20 minutes ago and James still wasn’t back from the stage. Metallica was in the process of filming their new movie, Through The Never, which was due to be screened in a month's time. You suddenly hear a familiar laugh, low and rumbly- joined by high pitched laughter shortly after. The door to the dressing room swung open and you were greeted by your boyfriend’s sweat-laden face, his bandmates following behind him guffawing in laughter before their eyes rested on you, noticing your presence. 

“Oh my god sweetheart, I haven't seen you in forever!” He picked you up effortlessly in one hand, kissing your lips passionately. As his hand slipped under your skirt, Kirk piped up from behind James. “We’ll leave you lovebirds to it-“ he sniggered, walking towards the door as the others followed suit, throwing jabs at you and james 

“Don’t mess up the couch! I plan to sleep on it later dude” Lars chuckled 

“I better not find anything weird in my suitcase later!” Rob continued

With his lips still pressed against yours, James threw them the middle finger as they shut the door behind them and locked it. “Happy birthday honey, how could I ever forget?” You say through grins as you bring your top up and above your arms, boobs spilling out of their confines . He sits on the sofa, straddling you in his lap. His right hand comes up to toy with your nipple, a moan escaping your lips as you feel the stimulation he’s giving you. You feel his lips curling into a smile as he pulls you closer to him “Fuck..I missed you” He pants into your ear as his free hand trails down your back, letting his fingertips graze your slick-stained panties. “So wet…and i haven’t even taken it off yet-“ He sneered, “Did my pretty little slut get ready for me beforehand?” You couldn’t help but nod your head at his sweet but degrading words. Suddenly he stopped. “Are you sure you can take me today? Im already an old man you know…” He asked hesitantly, a twinge of uncertainty in his voice.

“Older is always better“

You could tell he wanted more than you could take, but hell were you ready for him and you wanted what he was going to give you, so you nodded in agreement. James still looked uncertain so you just reassured him. “It's your birthday and i want to make you happy, so i'm absolutely thrilled with anything you can give me-Just remember our safeword.” Little did you know what he had in store for you…

 A devilish smile spread across his lips as he put you down on the ground, ripping off every article of clothing you had on. His faux mohawk soaked with sweat as he towers over in front of you, his visible bulge threatening to pop out at any moment as his aching cock was restricted in the confines of his jeans. “Please James I need it so bad…” Hearing your words, his hand went to grip your hair into a makeshift ponytail, muttering as he saw you on the floor, impatiently waiting for sweet release. “Open it sweet-shit, that's what you want, dontcha?” He purred. You gulp as you bring your hand up to unzip his fly, the heat between your legs growing by the second.

As soon as his zipper was brought down all the way, his long, throbbing and painfully hard cock slaps you square on the face. He chuckled as he spread the pre-cum over his tip, tapping it incessantly on your lips. “Open up sweetheart, show me how bad you want this old man’s cock…“ He degraded as you part your lips. In one smooth motion, his hardness enters your mouth, making you gag on its size. James pulls out, sniggering as he sees your lipstick stain on the base of his cock. He rested its underside on your face, wondering how you got it all to fit into your mouth. Without warning, he quickly slammed himself back into your mouth. He smiled as he saw you taking his full length down your throat, his balls slapping against your chin and the only sounds in the room being his grunting and the sound of flesh hitting flesh. Suddenly he ordered you.

“Turn around”

He asks you to stand up and turn around, placing your hands delicately on the sofa behind you. He kicks your legs to spread them apart wider, admiring your dripping cunt between them. You whine in anticipation as you feel his fingers gently circling your clit as he slowly pushes his digits into you, hissing at how eager you were. You like that, don't you?" James barked. "Love it when you're treated like the little whore you are.” You couldn't help but nod as he slowly licked long stripes up your slit, humming in satisfaction into your cunt as his tongue traversed it. 

Finally, you felt his calloused palms grabbing your hips as he rammed his hardness into you. You squirmed under the stretch, a sharp scream making its way out of your mouth. “Fuck, Jamie, 'm so close." You whined, receiving a heavy hand on your ass. He smashed his hips against your backbone, keeping the mind numbing rhythm you were used to. Just as you felt the knot in your stomach come undone, he pulled out. Exasperated, you turned behind to glare at him, a Cheshire cat-like grin spread on his face as his head tilted ever so slightly upwards. From this angle, he couldn’t look hotter. “You don't get to come till i say so” he grunted as his chest rose and fell. James pushed back into you and went right back to fucking you as if you weren't on the brink of tears. 

He kept at this for a while, getting you so close to the edge and then pulling out just to hear you whine and beg. “Fuck baby, so wet and tight ju-just for me..” The whole night he was just trying to see how many positions he could bend and fold you into, enjoying your face as different expressions appeared with every thrusts. James had a habit of praising and degrading as he edged you;

“You’re being such a good girl for me”

“I'm so lucky to have a cocksleeve like you”

“That ass and that pretty pink puss in that tight skirt…god woman do you wanna kill me?”

Finally, his hips rutted against your backside as you felt the sweet release of our shared connection, his arms gripping themselves to your chest as he came inside of you. "You've been so good, tonight, you know that?" He whispered into your ear, peppering your forehead with kisses. You nodded as you both drifted off to sleep with you in his lap, forgetting that his cock was still inside of you–but that's a problem for another time.

i need to be locked up for some of the things i think about when i see this dilf 💔

I have issues I can't speak of...

WELL it's been a while since I last posted- let's do some catching up, shall we?-

STARTING OFF WITH SAMHAIN ANGST!-

UGH🙄 my stepdad is being such a dildo right now!

He thinks I'm going to smoke his joint while he's gone and I'm so not because wouldn't it be obvious that I smoked it because it wouldn't be burnt at the tip from smoking it ,like omg just mellow dude I'm not going to do that.😡

my tumblr arc is insane — thank god only my mentally ill besties follow me here

I’m the dangerous kind of bisexual because I will fucking fall in love with anybody and let it ruin my life

I just remembered that as a kid my dad would un ironically refer to my siblings and I as tax deductions and I wonder if that is maybe a part of the reason we don’t value ourselves but idk

Send em! Scars, everything.

If you loved me youd jerk off to my selfharm wounds

come out come out where ever you are.

lol

First picture of me here

photos 🤳🏻

i wanna be her

i’ll literally die if i don’t meet a genuine older guy 😖

when is it my turn 😖

the masculine urge to love her in ways her father didn't.

bonus points if they have good movie and music taste 🎀

all cuddled up with my stuffed animal wishing it was an older man 💔

this would heal everything

daddy issues are going crazy rn

‼️⚠️This is VENT y’all DONT WANT TO READ, DONT READ⚠️‼️

honestly idk how i’ll act when i’ll actually meet a man bcs i feel like my dad has ruined my conception of “love”, no emotional support, little to none demonstration of love or caring for me, insults, being called a s!ut (witch honestly tf?!?! i’m literally a virgin i haven’t done ANYTHING with anybody and u call me a s!ut? like HOWWWWWW) blaming me for things he did and threatening me and my mom and sister (but like-literally, would drive super fast and in unsafe ways just to scare us) and much more.

Idk how men call women “fatherless” and shit like that cause basically ur talking abt an another man failing at something, and god forbid a man does something wrong! nooooo that can’t be possible it’s actually the wife’s fault she wasn’t good enough of both a wife and a mother! yea that must be it! and like also how they idolize this idea of absent father or leaving ur wife/fiancé and kids for doing “cool single dad shit” bcs they ruined and fuck3d up everything for then cover it up with some excuse like “well, i messed up” (and literally try nothing to “at least” recover something) like fuck off u are all just a punch of puss!es who only likes the idea of owning something and hurt that thing so much bcs u want to see them having to beg for your help and the need of your presence just to shrug it of or “dismiss it”.

And this is where my feelings get in conflict, bcs i hate men, i hate them they are just a bunch of pigs, but at the same time i wish to find a man to whom i can give all of myself and he can do the same with me, that is there for me and gives me what my dad hasn’t gave me, because i crave it so much, so much, the love of a man that loves me for who i am and just accepts me and loves me and is there for me ans holds me, hugs me and tells me that everything is okay, that i’ll make it, that i’ll succeed in what i want to do in life, like a father should, but i guess mine didn’t want to do that part or his way of giving me “support” was by telling me that i would never made it and that i was just a waste of money, that i just wasted his money because i would have never made it and never actually believe in the things that i wanted to do.

and note for the virgin part like literally WHAT MORE WOULD U ASK FOR?! IM 19 AND DONE NOTHING! I DONT SMOKE. I DONT DO DR<GS.NO TATOOS OR PIERCINGS (witch i have nothing against, actually i would like to have them but i literally can’t, but me personally have nothing against who has the latter two that i’ve mentioned) HAVE NEVER BROUGHT A GUY AT HOME BECAUSE I UNDERSTAND THAT ITS NOT MY HOUSE AND I CANT DO EVERYTHING I WANT. IVE NEVER CAUSED PROBLEMS WITH THE LAW OR ANYONE I WORK I TRY TO DO ALL I CAN I CAN COOK AND CLEAN AND ALL THAT DOMESTOC SH!T AND I DO IT. I KNOW WHEN TO LOWER MY HEAD AND LISTEN WHAT DO U WANT FROM ME?!? HOW AND WHY ISNT THIS GOOD ENOUGH FOR YOU?!

this is probably why i read so many fics abt older fictional man lmao (this is actually not funny i need help/hj)

fighting my demons (craving attention from older men)

Dad problems

I can't stop thinking about how many times I messed up our father and daughter relationship, telling him that I wishes he wasn't my father or spending weeks not talking to him. Like the time he got deployed to Spain and I asked him before he left if he would text me and send me pictures of Spain. He was gone for almost a full year not a single text that wasn't about my grades or helping my mom. Or when he hits me and then promises me he wont do it again just for a week to go by and he takes another persons side before hearing mine and hits me again. I've apologized many times for the things I've said and done but nothing seems to work. That man wont ever see me as his daughter again and it breaks my heart.

photo dump 2/2 :3

real :3

my dad beats me so therefore i want to fuck every man over 30

sum pics i forgot to upload yesterday ^^

crying over the fact that nobody is sending me bicep and vein pics while I'm ovulating 

that one video of Oscar Isaac where hes like "8 inches of dick aint enough for you, huh?" mhm, the only thing that plays in my head