Biosphere: Jellyfish (1994) By: Alexis Rockman

the reveal that mizu is not only the ronin but also the bride is so well executed. the way she walks the line between man and woman, white and japanese, victor and victim... it's good fucking writing.

it deeply disgusts me that nothing is genuine

experiencing a sorrow that is so personal is incredibly ugly. pain felt selfless is kind of poetic in a way but when you take it deep- when it becomes too personal, too painful only on your own behalf it becomes so ugly that it erases everything. you turn into an old pile of grief. they way you look- the thoughts. they will flood your brain and you'll scrunch your face in disgust, now you became entirely what you have been feeling. that is who you are right now; broken glass shards shoved under your bed, a sink full of dishes with flies flying on it, the never happening possibility of becoming someone- something. all the figs on that tree is rotten. this is incredibly ugly.

smiling computers

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i do wish someone to shot me in the head

wiege

SQUID GAME | 2x06 | Kkanbu

“I had thought of suicide when I was much younger, as, possibly, we all have, but then it would have been for revenge, it would have been my way of informing the world how awfully it had made me suffer. But the silence of the evening, as I wandered home, had nothing to do with that storm, that far-off boy. I simply wondered about the dead because their days had ended and I did not know how I would get through mine.”

— Giovanni’s Room by James Baldwin

Simpler times ♥